Brokenness
Earlier this week I wrote an article that can pierce a
person through the heart, but my personal convictions are not your convictions,
it is also not my job to convict you of sin that is for the Holy Spirit,
therefore I didn’t post that article. I am only here to tell you of the Savior
that gave His all for me and you. A lot of my inspiration comes from songs and
this article is especially inspired by Heart like Heaven by Hillsong United.
Last year when I was at the Dream Week conference with my
church I was going through a moment of insecurity over something I had done
wrong and by the time we came to the third service which was the evening
services I wished I had just stayed at my room because I didn’t think God would
want to hear me sing to him at that moment. I dragged myself through the praise
songs trying so desperately to remind myself of Gods promises and by the time
the last song came I just wanted to crawl under a rock and die but the Spirit
of God spoke to me through the words of the last song, a song I have listened to
a thousand times but I never truly understood the meaning. If you don’t know
this song already I would encourage you to listen to it.
At that moment through the words of the song I was reassured
that God doesn’t seek perfection.
All God wants is a heart broke sound, a heart that is broken before him that
cries, Holy, Holy, Holy like the angels in heaven do. A heart like Heaven that
is what he wants, that echoes a heart broke sound. He wants you just as broken
as you may be, as filthy and messed up as you may be and come broken before the
Lord.
Now do not get me wrong
a broken heart is not to be weak and feeling sorry for yourself and having a
pity party. When the bible talks about a broken heart in
Psalms 51: 16-17 which says:
You
do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart
you, God, will not despise.
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart
you, God, will not despise.
It talks about a heart
that can be vulnerable before the Lord. A heart that acknowledges that it
cannot do without Jesus. A heart that says I cannot get by without your
presence, I cannot get by without your peace. I cannot get by without your joy.
I cannot get by without your love, your strength, your grace and your mercy. One
that says I am weak but you are strong, I am not perfect but I am yours if you
want me. A heart that proclaims when I have you I have everything and without
you I have nothing. God is not looking for perfect people to praise him, to
seek him but He seeks the sound of a broken heart. A broken heart that sounds
like heaven “Holy, Holy, Holy”.
If God sought perfection we would surely die
trying to reach it and we would never even reach it. Therefore we must throw
our weakness, insecurities, doubt, fear and dead works into Gods greatness. Let
God be our strength in our weakness, Let Him be our redeemer in our sin, let
Him be our source in our emptiness, Let him be our Hope in our helplessness and
let Him be Savior in our brokenness.
