One drop of Jesus

Two months ago a very good friend of mine contacted me and asked me if I had a story that needed illustration since he is obviously so good at drawing. At first I was like “uh no” but as I was typing my reply the Spirit of God reminded me of a vision I had three years back. I was very hesitant of disclosing this with someone not because I doubt it will change someone’s life but it takes a lot from me to share the intimate things about myself and especially intimate moments with God.  If you remember my post from two months back Tug of war, it took quite a big piece of me and here goes another.

I took a few weeks to get back to him, but thank God I did, now it is such an inspiration; I hope it inspires you too. I had this vision in the season right after I recommitted my life to God and the Spirit of God prompted me to go on a 6 day fast. On the fifth day we had a worship night and prayer with my leader and another friend of ours. That night I had been pleading and crying out to God asking why I had such weak faith and why I didn’t earnestly sought after Him. I said “Jesus I desperately want to thirst for you with all that I am, I don’t even know how to explain it.” I didn’t know what more to say, what to pray so I just became silent as I sobbed, swaying to the music in the background.

 I was completely lost in the moment and for a split second I forgot where I was. In that second everything went still, the music stopped and I saw my myself going into state I don’t even know how to explain it. Except it seemed as though a TV screen was placed before my eyes I saw myself in a desert that was utterly dry, completely and utterly dry I could see the drought with my own eyes. I could see how the sun penetrated through the sand, I am sure I could see the heat waves descending. I was so thirsty I felt like I was going to die; my skin was completely dry and it was peeling off, the dress I wore was scorched by the excessive heat and dryness. I saw myself attempting to run, more like a crazy person as if I was searching for something. Where could I run to, it was an open field of desert and I was so thirsty I couldn't have lasted a mile. If I could draw what I saw I would draw it for you.

Suddenly in my vision, I stood still and looked up to the sky as a single tiny drop of water fell slowly from the sky directly unto my palm. And I heard the most loving voice say to me “That is the way you ought to long for me, long for me like I am the last drop of water in the driest of deserts.” In the vision when I consumed that drop of water, I changed I flourished like a flower!! My skin that was peeling off because of dehydration was now flawless, I felt alive! Everything around me also came to life and it flourished and colors that were dull came to life, like in disney movies when the villain is defeated the seasons change from winter to spring, so similarly after that one drop the desert changed from dry to a field of greens. In that moment I knew how much I had to thirst for Jesus. He is the very last drop of water in a dry and thirsty land and He is enough!! This vision is in accordance to Psalms 63: 1-3 one of my most favorite psalms.

My good friend Matias Kandali drew this picture for me to illustrate the vision.At first when he sent me the picture I was like "oh my word, what is this creepiness?" but when I took a second glance, the chords of my heart were tied to it. I couldn’t stop staring at it, the picture is so exquisite, it is such a spiritual representation of the vision it is not even a joke. It is not similar to my vision yet it is so relevant on so many levels and so unfathomable; it has ignited something afresh in me. Do you know what I love most about the picture? That tiny little drop of water, it is the best part of the picture. We all need that One drop of Jesus, it changes everything.

(“This article is dedicated to Matias Kandali”)

Word Of Advice: Everything we need from God is in the bible, there should be nothing we seek outside of the bible or outside of God. Yet God does according to his will and purpose through His Spirit that we may have dreams and visions to ignite us to seek him more in His word and through prayer. And when God speaks or gives you a vision/dream it is always in accordance to a scripture even if you have not found it yet believe me, it is there! We are not to use visions and dreams to form a doctrine or a teaching apart from that which has already been given to us through the bible. So stop listening for a voice and start searching for a verse!!